The nights were the worst.
They went on forever.
It was as if I was cursed.
I didn't care for it whatsoever.
Finally get to sleep.
Nurse comes in with another pill.
I've never seen a trick so cheap.
Feel like I'm going to be ill.
Breakfast time.
All of the food needs to be altered.
How can anyone eat this grime?
Impossible to feed when it's unaltered.
Feeling sick.
The room starts to spin.
Better get to the bathroom quick.
Throwing up all my sins.
I want to go outside.
Nurse tells me no.
I've been denied.
I just wanted to feel the breeze blow.
Take a nap.
Sleep thru lunch.
Feel like I'm about to snap.
Just want something to crunch.
Bones is watching a movie again.
I don't understand how he be that still.
I stand up, start to complain.
Words are pounding in my brain like a drill.
Go back to bed to lay down.
The dinner cart arrives.
My mood is a yellowish brown.
I can't believe I'm still alive.
Mer comes to get me out of bed.
There's no energy left in me to move.
Hung up on the thought that I want to be dead.
I know everyone one else would disapprove.
Get drug from my room for dinner.
Sat in front of a meal I don't want to eat.
Everyone staring like I'm some prize winner.
I just want to retreat.
Sit down in my chair, in front of the boob tube.
Determined not to get up for the rest of the night.
I just want to chew on an ice cube.
Next thing I know I'm in another fight.
Nurse comes, time for my meds.
Drink of water, quickly gulp them down.
I just want to go to bed.
The world is spinning around.
I crawl underneath the covers.
Hoping that I will wake up from this dream.
How soon will I recover?
I'm just tired of swimming upstream.










































































